Here we are again :) Trying to let go of the memories that marked my existence... but it is soo hard when u realize that the past keeps coming back and haunts your present. I think I found a way that allows me to store in a box the memories which were for many years unforgettable. It seems a bit strange when I see that many people which were the leading actors of the memories are somehow still in my life or they got kicked out of my life by me :D or they just had to leave and make room for better moments with more greater people :)
My life somehow is starting to create a straight path and leading me to the final destination of a stage that finishes after a while and then I realize that there in the corner on a bench is someone waiting for me and telling me that she/he waited for me a lifetime. That sounds strange I admit even for me :)) BUT i guess Not everything has to be like I want and I know life is full of surprises. Maybe sometimes we have to try creating our own place of happiness even though is not real :) Life is most of the time hard, misterious and very complicated o.O .And I think that is the fun part where you see that complicated is not always that bad as it sounds. Being complicated is an art, having a complicated life is common and trying to eliminate complication from your life is a really though challenge.
ANd yeees The Deja-vu part.... I always have the feeling that someway or somehow I already did that or already saw that. It is strange and it;s kind of mind blowing. At least for me it's sometimes frustrating to realize that I might already done that. It's a waste of time ! And life should not have a repeat button . oh well maybe when u need to clear things out you need the repeat button but otherwise... nooo!
The DEja-vu that will always reamain a mystery in my life is that one when I was in the 9th grade and I thought I Was actually dreaming although I was very non-sleeping .It happened very quick like a flahs-back and it will always be a mystery for me... I think for the other person was very real :D and a very common memory but for me was strange and happened in an instant it was like time had a forward button :D
I hope life will start treating me like a VIP person :)) and offer me the stuff that I still don't have .
Oh I almost forgot... About that person which I thought was special. He turned out to be very common and thinking very convinient only for him but that is ok because I realized He didn;t ment much in my life. He was just another one.Didn't had the power to take control and gain a piece of my heart and making sure he will stay there for ever :D I guess now I am gonna stick with the guy that showed me he is always there for me no matter what:) He really deserves my attention :) That;s why I decided I am gonna give him again the key of my heart :D
Good night dear reader :D :*
My life somehow is starting to create a straight path and leading me to the final destination of a stage that finishes after a while and then I realize that there in the corner on a bench is someone waiting for me and telling me that she/he waited for me a lifetime. That sounds strange I admit even for me :)) BUT i guess Not everything has to be like I want and I know life is full of surprises. Maybe sometimes we have to try creating our own place of happiness even though is not real :) Life is most of the time hard, misterious and very complicated o.O .And I think that is the fun part where you see that complicated is not always that bad as it sounds. Being complicated is an art, having a complicated life is common and trying to eliminate complication from your life is a really though challenge.
ANd yeees The Deja-vu part.... I always have the feeling that someway or somehow I already did that or already saw that. It is strange and it;s kind of mind blowing. At least for me it's sometimes frustrating to realize that I might already done that. It's a waste of time ! And life should not have a repeat button . oh well maybe when u need to clear things out you need the repeat button but otherwise... nooo!
The DEja-vu that will always reamain a mystery in my life is that one when I was in the 9th grade and I thought I Was actually dreaming although I was very non-sleeping .It happened very quick like a flahs-back and it will always be a mystery for me... I think for the other person was very real :D and a very common memory but for me was strange and happened in an instant it was like time had a forward button :D
I hope life will start treating me like a VIP person :)) and offer me the stuff that I still don't have .
Oh I almost forgot... About that person which I thought was special. He turned out to be very common and thinking very convinient only for him but that is ok because I realized He didn;t ment much in my life. He was just another one.Didn't had the power to take control and gain a piece of my heart and making sure he will stay there for ever :D I guess now I am gonna stick with the guy that showed me he is always there for me no matter what:) He really deserves my attention :) That;s why I decided I am gonna give him again the key of my heart :D
